Your subtleties They strangle me I can't explain myself at all. And all the wants And all the needs All I don't want to need at all.
The walls start breathing My mind's unweaving Maybe it's best you leave me alone. A weight is lifted On this evening I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light, It ends tonight It ends tonight.
A falling star Least I fall alone. I can't explain what you can't explain. Your finding things that you didn't know I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing My mind's unweaving Maybe it's best you leave me alone. A weight is lifted On this evening I give the final blow.
[Chorus] When darkness turns to light It ends tonight, It ends tonight. Just a little and Sorry won't make this right It's too late to fight It ends tonight, It ends tonight.
Now I'm on my own side It's better than being on your side It's my fault when your blind It's better than I see it through your eyes All these thoughts locked inside Now you're the first to know
When darkness turns to light, It ends tonight, It ends tonight. Just a little insight won't make this right, It's too late to fight, It ends tonight, It ends when darkness turns to light It ends tonight It ends tonight, just a little insight Won't make this right, it's too late to fight It ends tonight, It ends tonight, Tonight, Insight, When darkness turns to light it ends tonight
How true. What a beautiful song.
They say its okay. I don't know. I can only pray.
Who asked who, I don't know.
The previous time you didn't want it, and you destroyed everything yourself. Of course I was hurt.
But now just after half a year suddenly you are considering options and all the crap.
What the fuck. Are we going to get close, and maybe you decide that you don't want it again, and the whole cycle repeats itself?
I can't be arsed anymore. Its so fucked up. Not the situation.
I am trying to ask you out soon. If my schedule and your schedule permits.
Asking is not a problem. Whether it will be through is a major one.
Though you said yes maybe something will tweak in your mind, and I am sent crashing down again.
Well maybe its just a primary school get-together, and I am really the special one.
Well, hope hope and hope. Its annoying.
I don't have the courage honestly. The cons outweigh the pros. And I really dreamt about what happened. I woke up feeling dejected and alone, like a rose...
Everytime I talk I have to consider if this is something that will screw me up. Some little things that you do ultimately screw me up.
Well, just to let you know this screwed me up badly.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
「 invaded it on 1:27 PM 」
YEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Alright I have give myself some targets, and one of them is to blog after promos.
So here it is.
Byee.
Okay my exams ended on Friday. The previous 3 days was senseless playing. On Friday just after the paper we went to celebrate Budifatty's birthday at Eighteen Chefs. Then, we took a TEAM BUS (HAHA) down to the nearby court, and the trip was pretty funny because Donovan's badminton vice captain was there too.
So anyway while trying to head a particular ball the ball landed on my specs, and caused a scratch (again). Well of course its out of shape, and maybe I am going to change the frame tomorrow or something.
So now I am wearing my cute army specs. And I really look like a nerd.
We will not be having school till Thursday, and those two days left on the week are post exam activities. Like PE stuff.
A bit gutted that we didn't get dragonboat, I thought it could be fun.
So anyway about promos. Econs was okay, hopefully passable. Bio was okay, though I missed out a few points in the essay, still hopefully passable. Maths was okay, hopefully passable too.
Wow everything is passable right? Wrong. Chem was a total disaster. A complete failure. I told someone that I cried while doing it, and the reply was, ''Wah you still can do? I cry already, but still continue crying because cannot do anything".
It doesnt help that I need around 56% to pass Chem. My daily work is screwed, and not because I don't do, its because I did, and got a lot of wrongs.
Should have just copied everyone's work. Like what we did for Mr Tan CW homework. Oops.
But the thing is for my 56%, my teacher told me verbally since our PW group is marginally late because of a PW meeting. She refused to show our group for some reason. Hopefully she has a very kind mindset of trying to motivate me, since I just barely passed Chem during block test, and my friend told me that she took a look at the list and everyone's was less than 50%.
Amen.
One of the after-promos-things is visiting my grandparents. I haven't visit them since exams ended. Well, I wanted to go on Saturday, which is the next day, but suddenly my grandfather had complained of a leg-ache (if such a word exist), and I couldn't go.
I still couldn't get the reason. He can just sit there and I can talk to him. He doesn't need to walk.
But oh well, I thought maybe I could go like today or Wednesday.
Then on Sunday or something, my mum told me that there are news that my grandfather's leg is starting to rot.
Holy fuck (pardon the swear word, because its a major thing). First thing that came to my mind is diabetes. My grandmother has it, but a minor one, and can keep under control with medicine. I just hope my grandfather didn't get that since I believe they have been eating quite healthily. Like bland, but definitely not ice blended or anything.
So while playing games yesterday I remembered my mum picking up a call. Because right after that call she told me that my grandfather's leg has rotted already. Like worsen.
Jialats man. For a moment I wasn't able to concentrate on my game.
Today morning my mum called me (relax, its routine), and told me she's bringing my grandfather to the hospital. I was thinking, what the fuck, now then bring. When he started having signs, he should be whipped into a ward already. He said hes experiencing pain now, which is quite different case already.
(sing to the tune of One Republic's Apologize) That it's too late to hospitalize It's too late I said it's too late to hospitalize It's too late
I think this is epic. Another work of genius from Terence Ong.
My mum told me that, all my aunts and uncles, have work commitments, and they couldn't bring him to the hospital today. So my mum who needs to go to the Eastern part to work everyday, is bringing my grandfather to a hospital today. And she told me to be 乖 and not to cause any more trouble for her.
Erm okayy sometimes only mah.
On a serious note, this totally killed off my respect for my relatives. When their dad is in trouble they rather put up a 'Busy' sign, because of work, because of blah blah. Seriously fuck you. Like my parents don't have work.
So I am wondering if my mum don't go today, my grandfather's leg will rot rot rot rot rot rot, like worse than pudge in dota.
I really think family is darn important. Especially parents. Even though they can scream at you, etc, but they still love you. Like my mum who sometimes totally killed me and still prepare the dishes I like to eat.
I couldn't get the logic of just sacrificing work for a day, and just carry on the work tomorrow. Granted there might be schedules, due dates etc, but its just for a day. Request for a 1 day leave. Is that very difficult?
I know I will do it. I thought for everyone its first priority. I have to think twice now. Now I am thinking they are probably just lazy.
I am totally disgusted. Considering they all live at the eastern part, they need someone from the northern part to go. Or maybe they want him to die soon, to get the treasure chest underneath his bed or something.
If thats the case I am gonna commit homocide.
It is a good day today, but it has been ruined by such terrible news.
BAH.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
「 invaded it on 12:45 AM 」
YEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Wow. I didn't go to school on Wednesday. Which is yesterday.
Because something terrible happened. I got a stomachache.
*everyone gasps in shock*
Yeap, this time its real. I am REALLY not bluffing. To quote Derek, I REALLY have a stomachache.
No matter how convincing I am, you all will still doubt me. Oh well.
So the mio tv guy came today and fixed it. So now I changed my crap modem, have mio tv, which the main focus will be the Uefa Champions League :D
And my speed is upgraded to 15mbps. Cool.
So those who wanna come my house and watch the Champions League can stay overnight already YAY!
Fat hope. Obviously my mum won't allow. Okay maybe for 1 person, but seriously a big group is going to kill everyone in my family.
Then you hear goal goal goal goal goal goal goal goal goal. If its a repeat like the Moscow Final I think not only my family, my neighbours are going to wake up.
But today the guy stayed for 4 hours. Which was pretty long. And the poor guy is rushing to another appointment.
I think I don't look like a student. He asked me if I am one. And when I told him I didn't go to school because I am sick he gave the -OMGWTFBBQIGOTPWN- face.
But when I explained to him he was like chey~~
So after a while I went to play basketball. Hey, stomachache doesn't affect your body right.
And I picked up a knock on the side of my knee. Its bruised :(
I think whenever I play I am bound to have some injury. Sometimes to my face, legs, and maybe fingers.
The week before the previous while playing, I stepped on Derek's shoes while trying to drive in.
Crack. I spent the whole morning trying to get rid of the pain. Didn't really helped when we walked around, went to play LAN, and playing basketball again at the PHS Family Day thing.
I think ah-neh watched us play.
Anyway that week the swelling ankle came back. The pain was slightly niggling, but manageable.
Then one day after taking my afternoon nap, I climbed out of my bed and stood up with relative ease.
Fwah. God loves me man. Though the swelling was there (its still there now!) the pain was really very little. Close to no pain.
Then on Saturday we went to celebrate Yanyi's birthday. And we also played basketball after that.
I still cannot jump very high, and when I land sometimes I feel weird. So I am shifting my weight towards my left side.
That Saturday I stepped on Budifatty's foot and almost got a sprain again.
Sucks man. That kind of feeling whereby one wrong moment, and you can't carry on playing anymore. On that day that is.
I am still feeling a bit shitty. As in wann' shittin' that k' of feelin', but no shittin' manz. And when my mum saw that I was playing games, she asked if I really have one, or just a mild one and use that as an excuse to not go to school.
Like what the hell. I was already preparing to go school until I felt that sudden pang of _____ (I am going to be honest, fill in the blanks yourselves because I don't know what to say).
Hopefully I don't feel that tomorrow.
I am undecided on whether should I watch the Man Utd VS Wolfsburg. Its like 2 more hours more. Amen.
I am praying. Every now and then.
A HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY EVERYONE. NO SCHOOL FOR ME TOMORROW HAHA.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
「 invaded it on 1:25 PM 」
YEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
So after today, its the end of the holidays. This holidays I only did some work.
Holy crap, 1 week is seriously not enough. Maybe they should make it like 2 weeks.
Friday we had a very eventful day. The guys, 17 of us I think, went to The Cage at Kallang to play football.
Fwah, its a long time since last year that so many people came to play together. It was very fun.
But I ended up with a cut on my arm because of Lun Fei's watch. And a brusied knee by Derek. And a few muscle aches, especially at my butt. When I change positions while sleeping, I have to do it very slowly.
But its getting better :D
Its like a tradition to have this football thing every year. Hopefully the next time we have this we can break the 20 person mark. Which is very achievable, since Roy, Samuel, JJ, and some other people were not able to make it.
Anyway now my bro is cooking fried rice for his home econs. Hopefully when the whole family eats it, we will be like 'FWAH SO DELICIOUS' rather than groaning in the toilet because of a severe diarrhea.
Just now while sleeping ( I just woke up by the way), I heard my mum shouting like crazy. She said something like, "你一直说你懂，可是其实你不懂!"
Woot. I think that was meant for my brother. Maybe he put the rice instead of the onions and garlics first :O
Anyway my blog is alive now, so tag if you are reading it! Have to mug now :(
And I changed my blog song. I think its very nice! The origin of the song is very touching, Rob Thomas' wife is currently fighting a disease. And he wrote this song reflecting the situation.
P.S Yes, don't think so lowly of yourself. Instead, everything you do is interlinked to my emotions.
Finally, I am back. Like millions of years after I last posted.
Anyway let's start with something new.
I am the Vice-Captain of our school's basketball team. Hooray.
Let me go on to something interesting.
Once upon a time, in a far away land.
There lived a guy named Terence Ong........
Okay forget that part. Sometime ago I went back to visit my grandparents. Lately I haven't found the time to visit them, because my current schedule doesn't permit it.
But anyway that day I made some time to visit them. Then while alighting from the bus, I thought of something.
That there is a very delicious chicken rice stall nearby. I think.
I remembered seeing somewhere that its Block 704, Bedok Reservoir Road. My grandparents are living at 713.
I thought that it was a very good chance to explore around, and hopefully I can find it since its so near.
And thus my 'Chicken Rice Expedition' began.
So initially I thought it was at somewhere near the Sheng Shiong area. I went there, and discovered that that area was actually Block 742 or something.
Fwah kena owned.
Never mind, I turned back , and crossed the road. Upon crossing the road, it was like 712, which is just beside my grandparents'.
So I thought its deeper inside the car park, since after the car park, there is a block of flats.
Then I walked and walked and walked.
Fwah kena owned again. Right in front of me is like block 716, and further down the number is slowly increasing.
Hokay (quoting Chandra), wrong direction. Then I turned back again, and stumbled upon a 'Mama' shop.
So I asked the Indian auntie who was manning the stall, who doesn't look like she remembered me, despite me buying so many ice pops during primary school.
Maybe I have became a suave young man, unlike her. Old and haggard.
Okay la I shall stop the personal insult. I am just pissed that she didn't remember me like after only a short time. Like 5 years.
So she said it was behind. I thought that this is it.
So I really walked behind, and stumbled upon the back gate of my primary school. Damai Primary School. I was a prefect then (cannot believe it right!).
Then I looked around. There isn't a lot of path to take. One is leading to a park, and behind the park was another estate. That was the place where my mum used to buy groceries from.
So I walked away from the park entrance, and towards the left. Slowly, I find myself at the car park.
WTF?!?!?! Kena owned X3 (times 3, not the face)
I really wanted to bash the Mama shop auntie, because its okay if she didn't remember me, but she also lied to me.
Looks like me, the Great Chicken Rice Explorer, has to go away empty handed.
So I walked back to the back gate of Damai Primary. Beside it, was a very long route, without any cover. By then I was already a ball of sweat.
But I cannot give up. And even though the possibility of finding the delicious chicken rice is small, I decided to try. And I walked down the long stretch of pathway.
I reached the front gate of my school. While walking on the pathway I saw that my school hasn't changed one bit. The walls are still as ugly, a combination of orange, olive, and white.
Disgusting. Luckily I left the school while it was, literally blue (the walls were blue).
So I reached the school gate and looked around.
FWAH FOUND IT. I HAVE FOUND THE DELICIOUS CHICKEN RICE. *spastic laughter*
Okay, I had won it.
Then I walked up the small flight of stairs, and walked near the coffeeshop.
I saw my ex neighbour's mother, but she didn't really see me. Didn't care about saying hello or anything.
Because I gotta get that, gotta get that, gotta get that chicken rice, that that. Boom boom boom... (courtesy of boom boom pow from Black Eyed Peas)
Then, I saw that there was a long string of people. The entire coffee shop was very crowded. Then I saw traced the long queue, and in the end it ended up with the chicken rice signboard.
I think it was something like Sheng Ji chicken rice or something. You might think that how come I didn't queue.
The queue was like, out of the coffee shop. The string of people were like forming a very large maze, and then the end was like covering the entrance of the clinic beside it.
I will be crazy to queue. If I queued, and they told me that they sold everything out, I might be forced to commit arson. Like burn down the whole coffee shop.
In the end there was no choice but to leave. I was wondering if there are so many people eating that chicken rice, what about the stalls beside it. The crowd totally made it impossible to buy like lets say, fishball noodles.
So I left, and walked back to the Sheng Shiong, because there's a not bad chicken rice there.
Okay so one big round, I am back to Sheng Shiong. I think I wasted an hour trying to figure out block 704.
What made me even more pissed, is that from the bus stop that I first alighted, I could have walked opposite the Sheng Shiong direction, and cross like a small junction, to reach THE VERY NICE CHICKEN RICE (though I haven't tried it)
In the end I took a whole big round, like around 1 km, taking an hour. Which I can just reach it in like 50m, using 5 minutes at most.
This is very pissfying. I think the next time I go there I am going to buy like 50 packets and store at home, slowly eat.
And after buying I went to visit my grandparents. I knocked on the door, and I think my grandpa said, "Eh,没有去做工阿?"
Omg either I heard wrongly, or he really thinks that I am my dad.
But maybe he thought that I went to work, because he's like asking if I am studying or working. Ho mah gawds.
Anyway I think I am going to visit them this holidays. Because my grandfather has a bit of dementia, and I think if I don't go often, he might soon forget me :(
The last time I went was like dunno when. Maybe a few months. I have been too preoccupied with my own stuff.
Now I have to make the time and effort to visit them already!
And what bad luck, while bathing just now, I put my spectacle hooks in the sink. Unfortunately, one got washed down.
So I am currently dismantling the pipe to get it out. Okay just joking. I am gonna tell my dad to do that.
If not I have to waste three bucks, which could have gotten me THE VERY NICE CHICKEN RICE already.
Sighs.
Monday, May 25, 2009
「 invaded it on 11:16 PM 」
She's starin' at me I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin' Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin' And now it's I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me All that that means is neither of us is listening
And what's even worse? That we don't even remember why we're fighting So both of us are mad for
Nothing, fighting for Nothin', crying for Nothing, whoa But we won't let it go for
Nothing, no not for Nothing, this should be Nothing to a love like what we got
Oh baby, I know sometimes it gonna rain But baby, can we make up now? 'Cause I can't sleep through the pain Can't sleep through the pain
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me Oh no no no
And it gets me upset Girl when you're constantly accusing Askin' questions like you already know We're fighting this war Baby when both of us are losing This ain't the way that love is supposed to go
Whoa, what happened to workin' it out? We've fall into this place Where you ain't backin' down and I ain't backin' down So what the hell do we do now? It's all for
Nothing, fighting for Nothing, crying for Nothing, whoa But we won't let it go for
Nothing, no not for Nothing, this should be Nothing to a love like what we got
Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain But baby, can we make up now? 'Cause I can't sleep through the pain Can't sleep through the pain
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me Oh no no no
Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect Perfect, perfect, oh oh And just how good it's gonna be We can fuss and we can fight Long as everything's all right between us Before we go to sleep Baby, we're gonna be happy, oh
Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain But baby, can we make up now? 'Cause I can't sleep through the pain Can't sleep through the pain
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me Oh no no no
Saturday, April 18, 2009
「 invaded it on 2:16 PM 」
YEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Alright, almost didn't blog for a month now.
Err I have quite forgotten a number of things that happened. So maybe I will just cut short.
So now basketball training has become tougher. The seniors didn't want to repeat whatever happened last year, which caused them to be kicked out in the first round this year.
So right now we will be having 2 months of physical training. Running 2.4km every training is a must, followed by 5 sets of 20 of pumpings, crutches and squats.
Fwah after these I can barely stand up.
Then its drills, like the slide feet drill, sprint drill, and suicides. Torturous.
Initially they were saying for these 2 months we cannot touch the ball. But in the end apparently no one can take it, so we normally played training matches after the physical training.
From 5 till 8pm. Hmm I think after like 6 months of training, it will be a miracle if we didn't improve.
Yesterday was a Friday, normally we only have to go to school at 8.40pm. However it was an exception yesterday. Or maybe the days to come.
Because we will be having our morning runs in the morning to train our stamina. One round around the track, can only take 1.45 minutes. Total 8 rounds, for a start.
The teacher emphasized, "for a start". This exercise is called intervals.
First time running it was okay, I got around 1.20 minute. But subsequently I got tired and for one round I got like close to 1.40 minute. The rest were like 1.30 plus.
Moral of the story: Save energy for later.
Then after that we did some layup drills, 5 dribble full court layup.
After that we ended the session. Fwah I was sweating like mad, even my underwear is soaked. And my fringe wasn't nice anymore :(
I was practically shivering in the lecture theatre during Chem. With so many things to carry I looked like my country is at war and I have managed to escape the terrbile situation.
Anyway I am having a sore throat right now. Actually for the past week. But now the sore throat irritated my throat and I have been coughing like mad. It still haven't subsided :(
Tomorrow we will be having tuition at Donovan's house again.
A few weeks ago we were studying at Donovan's house after tuition. TBT came and something really terrible happened.
The birth of a monster.
Description of the video: The time has come. The deafening roar echoed throughout the room. A monster, D, is unleashed. Out to create havoc in the mortal world, TBT and his fellow friends must try and stop him. This is an epic battle between good and evil. Can scrawny little TBT fight off the fierce, strong, but somewhat "gay" monster? Stay tuned...
Written by Yours Truly :D
I think this is a very good example of being very stressed up. I think you guys especially Donovan will be sooooo dead when the YJC peeps know my blog. Muaahahah
Enjoy the video.
Shall blog next time!
P.S Eh facebook is really so damn fun. Jialat I think I am addicted liao :P
